Thank you for your message!
First of all, thanks, the compliment means a lot. But I’m not striving to be inspiring, I strive to have others be inspired by Christ. (But I don’t want it to seem like I’m rejecting your compliment…because I’m not! Haha)
In the CCC, it says:
Homosexual persons are called to chastity. By the virtues of self-mastery that teach them inner freedom, at times by the support of disinterested friendship, by prayer and sacramental grace, they can and should gradually and resolutely approach Christian perfection. (CCC 2359)
To be straightforward (ha ha), I believe I’m called to live a chaste life. I believe we’re all called to live a chaste life, regardless of our sexuality, gender, or even whether we’re single, dating, or married. Even married persons are called to a chaste union.
As for me getting married, I don’t think that’s my calling. This is something that I’m struggling with, I’ll be honest. It’s difficult to comprehend and fully embody the single vocation in today’s society at my age. But I don’t feel called to married life because I understand that marriage between man and woman is a beautiful union, in which new life is created through sex. Knowing that homosexual acts close the gift of life, I pray for the grace and virtue of self-mastery. I wouldn’t want to commit myself to marriage not wanting to have sex, because in marriage, we are called to give ourselves fully to our spouse. I could not look at my spouse, experience the beautiful God-given Sacrament that is marriage, and then not give all of myself to him.
My heart belongs to Jesus. I have no idea what God has in store for me; and it may not be what I want but ultimately, it will be what I need. I am constantly praying that I may be who I am called to be, but first and foremost, I am a son of God.